It’s been awhile since I’ve been in this place & while I needed to step away for a few weeks, I’m glad to be back. I’ve missed writing & the clarity it brings to my mind. Right now I could use come clarity & maybe this process will help me. Tomorrow one of my very best friends, who lives two houses away is moving across town. In the big scheme of life, it’s not a big deal, but today feels awfully heavy. Eight months ago my sister made the same move & it seems like my heart & soul are all across town. I will adjust & it will be great. But it leaves me feeling antsy.
I think every year about this time, I start to get antsy & these other variables aren’t helping. After a long hot, summer of travels & over all schedule upheaval, we start school & routines start to come back & I start to want a change. Something new. A challenge. An experience. And so I start looking at houses, careers & ideas that might satisfy my appetite for variety. And nothing ever turns up & by that time, it’s fall & the change in weather is just the change I need & my ansty-ness just floats right out the window.
This year, this day, I’m trying to remember that. I feel like Scot & I are at a crossroad in life. It’s probably a crossroad I just made up in my head, but as time has marched on I find ourselves in a different stage of life. Which always brings some growing pains along with it. With two kids in school & no ‘baby’ in the house, I find myself with more time on my hands than I’m used to & I’m not quite sure what to do with it. Today, I’ll use some of it to take a nap, but overall, I’d rather create a project to work on. Something that will benefit, my heart, mind & soul. That will enrich my family & my home & be a tangible evidence of my time well spent.
I have a couple ideas, naturally, and some are probably better than others, but I think I’m ready to get started. Stay tuned as I fine tune all this bursts of thoughts & ideas.